Get "Gross & Indecent" with me this Saturday!

If you're in LA and you have $10 to spare, come by and check out this event!

"Gross & Indecent" - a 24 hour theater event
See what happens when writers and directors only have 24 hours to create theater!

What happens when writers have no time to write and directors and actors have no time to rehearse? Why, 24 hour theater is what happens!

Friday night, June 12, the writers get assigned a line of dialog and draw a cast out of a hat. They then scurry off to their local coffee house and tap away at their keyboards until early morning.

Saturday, June 13, the directors and actors arrive early in the morning, get together and go off and rehearse.

At 8 PM and 10 PM that night, the show goes on, ready or not. It's a fine line between train wreck and brilliance.

Admission - $10

TWO, COUNT 'EM, TWO SHOWS AT 8 PM AND 10PM.

C'mon, you know you want to see how it all turns out!

Make your reservation today at (818) 508-3003.

This event is a fundraiser for "Gross Indecency, the Three Trials of Oscar Wilde", which opens September 4th at Eclectic Company Theatre.

Saturday, June 13, 2009
8:00 pm and 10:00 pm
Eclectic Company Theatre
5312 Laurel Cyn Blvd.
North Hollywood, CA

Just needed to know

I just needed to know that you loved me. Not that you loved me because I behaved or because I did what you wanted me to do. Not that you loved me because I met your expectations or your unintelligible requirements. Not that you loved me because you had to or because we were married.

I just needed to know that you loved me.

Loved me.

Flawed. Failed. Floundering. Depressed. Ambitious. Determined. Fragile. Strong. Defeated. Difficult. Successful. Powerful. Weak.

Loved me.

It’s pretty simple, actually. Just love me.

I tried to love you that way. No matter how damaged you were, no matter how much you made me tremble in fear, no matter how much you hurt me and wounded me. Loved you.

Loved you.

Maybe that wasn’t obvious to you in the last few years of us but I did my best to just simply love you. As much as I could.

Maybe that’s what you did - loved me as much as you could.

But for all the times you said it, all the times you wrote it down, all the times you told other people, there were so very few times when I felt it. That you just simply loved me.

And in the end, I had hoped that that simple fact would win out - that you loved me. You told me over and over you would never let me go. You’d hunt me down, you’d bring me back. Because you loved me. Loved me that much.

But your pride won out over your love. And it showed me just how difficult that one simple request was. You couldn’t just love me. It had to have limits, it had to have rules, it had to have your mother’s approval.

It makes me wonder if that simple request is even possible.

Just love me.

Just me.

Just love.

Just love me.

Fundraisers in LA for "Gross Indecency"

If you're in LA and want to support my fall production of "Gross Indecency, the Three Trials of Oscar Wilde", check out one of the fundraisers below. Or go to my Paypal account and drop in your $10! susan@lifeonitsside.

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"GROSS AND INDECENT - A 24 HOUR THEATER EVENT"

What happens when writers have no time to write and directors and actors have no time to rehearse? Why, 24 hour theater is what happens!

Friday night, June 12, the writers get assigned a line of dialog and draw a cast out of a hat. They then scurry off to their local coffee house and tap away at their keyboards until early morning.

Saturday, June 13, the directors and actors arrive early in the morning, get together and go off and rehearse.

On June 13th, at 8 PM and 10 PM, the show goes on, ready or not. It's a fine line between train wreck and brilliance.

Admission - $10

TWO, COUNT 'EM, TWO SHOWS AT 8 PM AND 10PM.

C'mon, you know you want to see how it all turns out!

Eclectic Company Theatre
5312 Laurel Canyon Blvd., Noho

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Join me for an incredibly fun evening of bingo and drag queens and help me raise money for "Gross Indecency, the Three Trials of Oscar Wilde".

Legendary Bingo in West Hollywood will be hosting the event, featuring one of their fabulous drag queen bingo callers. My special guest caller is Apollonia Kotero, an amazing and generous lady!

$20 buys you your cards for all 10 games. Fabulous prizes will be given away including an evening of wine tasting, free sword fighting lesson, tickets to Disney and Universal as well as a whole bunch o'cheesy crap.

Hamburger Mary's
8288 Santa Monica Blvd., West Hollywood

Wednesday, June 17 at 9 PM

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Thanks for all your support!

You can't take that away...

I have spent my life trying to do/be what others want me to do/be. Well, I’m done.

I’m done trying to impress you all with my dazzling skills and all my accomplishments because you just don’t care. You don’t see it. You think I’m wasting my time with all this “stuff”. You think I’m being indulgent and ridiculous. You think I’m playing at my life because it’s not the life you chose for yourself. And you resent me because I chose to live the life I want, and not to live a life that is ordinary.

You can’t take anything away from me that hasn’t already been taken. You can’t possible undermine me anymore than you already have. You can’t make me stop and do things your way because, frankly, your way is as ridiculous to me as my way is to you.

If I were an athlete, a position that is acceptable in your eyes, then you would appreciate and understand all the work I am doing and that I have done. If I were an athlete, the hours of rehearsal and study and practice would be worthwhile because it would lead to me being a better athlete and maybe to something more. If I were an athlete, you’d leave me alone.

Or if I were 20, you’d roll your eyes and tolerate what I’m doing because I’m young and I’m exploring. If I were 20, you’d pat me on the head and say, go, explore, but you’d always end it with, but make sure you can get a job when you’re done. If I were 20, you would just pretend I had a future doing something useful once I got done with this silliness.

But I am an Artist. I have always been an Artist. And an Artist is an athlete in many ways. I have muscles I have to train, I have strategies I need to learn. I have game plans and goals and injuries, just the way an athlete does. My end goal requires just as much time and dedication and sacrifice as any professional athletic endeavor requires.

And, no, I’m not 20 but I am starting my life over again. And I’m only four years into it. But one thing I have learned in those four years is that I will not give up being an Artist for anyone. It is my life, it is my soul. It is what I excel at, whether you can see it or not. It is what makes my heart beat and my lungs breathe. It is what drives me and keeps me awake in the middle of the night It is what I wish I had embraced when I was 20 and was listening to too many other voices that told me to deny that Artist, to be something ordinary.

So do your best. Take away everything you can from me because you can’t take away the one thing that I live for - my art. You can’t take away my writing because, as long as I have a pen and a piece of paper, I can write. As long as there is one actor willing to stand in front of me and let me tell them what to do, I can direct. As long as I can find a crayon and an surface, I can draw. And you will never, ever be able to take that away from me.